It’s not easy penning down facts on yourself when you
realize that you’re a contradiction in layers, each one uncovering itself one
by one. The concept of displaying vulnerability on social media is something
that I've always wanted to attempt and here are a few facets of my personality
that I wouldn't really share with you, if we were to talk in person. I’m aware
that you might not be interested at all; but this was admittedly a desperate
attempt to try and learn about the unspoken crevices of who I am. If you care enough to go on, let’s begin my
journey to self-discovery, shall we?
-I can only spin my words out of experiences and not
imagination. Every single post on this blog is something that I've felt and
these words, linking reality to paper, are mouthpieces of my own feelings.
- I’m an extremist when it comes to emotions.I can get as upset as possibly happy I always
am, but you’ll rarely see me talking about it to you, no matter how close we
are.
-Routines tire me. I love change.
-Nothing cripples me like the word "cancer" does.
- The song, ‘Tonight’- FM Static is one song I haven’t
heard in 4 years, because of the past that rapidly ignited into the present,
when I did listen to it back then. Oddly enough, you’ll find me humming it occasionally.
- No, you’re not going to intrigue me if you’re cynical or
rude because of a ‘heavy past.’ Being a decent person never hurts. Try
glorifying your happiness instead of inflicting unnecessary impudence on
people.
- You’ll find parts of your vocabulary and habits find home
in mine if I’m fond of you. It’s a given.
-I can come across as someone who’s strangely apathetic
towards most things that people thought I’d react to, but I am deeply
sensitive. Major reason why I never take to criticism of any kind, kindly.
- I like giving people the satisfaction of knowing me.
- I have strangely never yearned romantic love and if it’s
ever come across, it’s taught me to always consider it a want, and not a need.
- I’m aware that some of the people I’m close to today won’t
matter ten years down the line. Moving on is indispensable and of course,
beautiful.
- I’m capable of detaching myself from people effortlessly.
- I've gone through a phase where everything upset me and
thus being happy, today, is far from an effort and more of a habit. Anyone who
makes me even remotely sad is intolerable and I will not hesitate forgetting a
thousand memories, just so that I can make a million more without their
negativity in my life.
- My idea of love is acceptance. The reason I love myself
this much is because I've come to terms with who I am.
- If I love you, I’d literally do anything to sustain the
bond that we share. If I've grown to dislike you, you’ll never, ever hear from
me again.
- I will get annoyed of you at one point if I get too much
of you. I treat people like books; I’ll patiently read every emotion that you
have to offer- but how long until I get bored of reading you again and again
and move on to another book?
- I think I struggle with being taken seriously. I’m still
working on it.
-I’m a realist, but would never shun the ideas of ‘forever’
that are existent in today’s friendships and relationships. Love is an escape
from reality for millions and I find the concept of hoping in a hopeless world,
beautiful.
- I will never forget you if you've ever helped me, no
matter how insignificant you might consider your assistance to be.
- If you’re still reading this, I really don’t know what to
say. I can’t see anyone as interested in knowing me, so a genuine thank you.
- I will not censor myself to adapt to your comfort. Don’t
make the mistake of trying to change me, because you’ll unconsciously end up
altering fragments of your own personality to suit mine.
- I tend to get very serious and personal during fights. I
try my best to not argue with the people I love and therefore resort to the safer bet- ignorance.
- I’m very, very loud. A part of it stems from being excited
about everything all the time.
- I have immense respect for anyone who’s capable of
performing any form of art, be it singing, dancing, writing or drawing.
Feelings can prove to be suffocating and people who can mould them into an
asset give me a lot to learn from.
- I skip meals either when I’m very disturbed or broke.
There is no in between, haha.
- I've learned that everyone deserves someone who knows
their standing with them. Therefore, I've taken it upon myself to openly appreciate the little things that people do for me, occasionally.
- I take secrets very, very seriously.
- I’m a nuisance when I cry. A nuisance not many people
might be able to handle. The only person who’s seen me when I’m an absolute
wreck, is my mother.
- I've been used as a boat to get on the other side of the
storm, as a phase to get over the difficult times; only to be forgotten, later
on. It doesn't upset me one bit, though.
You can’t make homes out of human beings, because eventually, you’ll have to
leave.
Is this all that I am and all that I would never give away?
I hope not, because I’m still game for new experiences to prove all my words
above, redundant. To anyone who is capable of changing my own perception of who
I think I am: Oh, won’t you sit down with me?
